Stephen King will not read this but I get why.

Stephen Kings, "The Dark Tower - Book 7"

Stephen King - just hear me out...

No one ever tells you how hard it will be. Scratch that. Everyone tells you. Bloggers tell you. Copywriters tell you. Hell even Stephen King tells you. But you won’t listen. You’ll bullishly put yourself out there, hoping that something may catch. But it really doesn’t sink in exactly how hard it will be until you try. Well, this is me trying to become a writer. And failing quite successfully. How long have I been trying? Really trying? Honestly – a couple of days. Not even a week. If you stopped reading for lack of sympathy I understand.

I do know one thing though, writers gotta write. So I guess I’m doing okay in that aspect, so far. And I’ll keep building on it. But where I get stuck is writing what I want to write, not what other people want me to write. Correction, I like writing for the agency. It gives me a sense of purpose. It’s fulfilling. It’s even a living. But my soul doesn’t yearn to create content for a moving and storage website (though I’m quite good at it).

And I’m sure countless respected copywriters will tell me to work the system. Start with small projects. The little $15 writing jobs where you talk about assembling a bike, or how to sell a moped on eBay. And I’m not looking for a shortcut. I just don’t want to put myself in a position where I’m groveling for a $30 copywriting project by showing them my portfolio of $15 copywriting jobs.

I want to inspire others. Provide some thrills. I want to write a gory futuristic novel that would make Stephen King believe that there is a shred of hope for our generation. I’d love to be published. I’d love just to write a novel that no one reads just to say that I wrote a novel. It’s all I can hope for at this point.

Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? If there is I’m a long way from seeing it. Anyone else struggling to make their way through the darkness?

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